To the end

So, I finally pushed him to the end. Made him say to me , lose my number. I could have just left it at what it was, him admiting that he's got issues and just needs to be alone. Really I no he's serious when he says its nothing personal. But I can't help but wonder if he's just fuckin with me. Like most guys. He is. I called him the other night cause I no he's bin sittin In his house doing nothing, being sad n hurt. So I offered to take him out to a movie during the day, he declined. Said he just want up to gettin outta the house. But then when I called later that night to tell him I was comin over to cheer him up n wouldn't take no for an answer ( not in a physco way, more or less in a , hey, your depressed... You need some happiness I'm comin over to make you smile) only to find out that oh he's out at the bar a buddy came over and got him out of the house. I was pretty hurt by that. How long can I let someone push me away untill I'm too far away to find the way back. That's where I feel I am now. And what that means is I have to leave him. Take him out of my thoughts n worries. He doesn't appeciate what he had. I just kept tryin n tryin to make him realize what he had but he just didn't care. So some things were siad . Maybe things I should have said right from the start. And its done. Over. Gone. N I'm trying to my hardest to not think of him or worry about him. I just need to concentrate on myself n my goals for my future. God grant me serenity to accept the things I can not change.
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