Holding tight

He text me today. Bin 4 days since I have deleted him 100% outta my online life, band pages included. Was just torturing my self lookin at his pages n flirtin with another girl. Looked like a mass txt he sent out. Informing me of his show this saturday, where it was at, how much, n when he went on. I didn't respond. I'm proud of my self, I guess. I badly wanted to talk to him, respond back. But he's ignored me this long, I'm sure the text was just that, a mass text. Why send it to me idk? Maybe cause I've brought a lot of ppl to his shows before? That has to be why. Idk. Deleted it, he is onvisouly not concered with the fact I said nothing back. So ill leave it at that. Goodnight
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There are songs u want to dance 2 songs u wanna sing along to n songs that make you feel so much it brings u back to the first time u heard it n it broke your

Moving on

So I addde him back to fb a little while ago, idk mostly cause I wanted to still part of his life, wanted to know what he's up to, if he was gettin with other girls or had another interst. Well my worst fears have bin confirmed. Idk what I was expecting... Idk why I torture mtwelf like that ... I tried talkin to him online, but he doesn't respond, he does to her tho, even writes comments like she has nothin on you refering to her hottness... I'm just... Done. He doesn't want Me, can't remember the good, great times we had with each other. Only remembers the bad. I can't keep torturing my self. For what? For him to ignore me, move on with his life, find someone else :( hurts so bad! But ill just have to hurt for a while, but without him in my life. I can't chase after something, even tho I want it more than anything. I deleted him completly out of my life, no number, not written down some where, no fb n no Myspace, including his bands pages. This is hard but... I can't do it
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Work... I'm honestly thinkin about quiting fuck this shit ugh

Ok, I'm so sick of this every weekend night I have to work my boss let's the other bar tender off early to sit n drink n makes me stay till close n do all the

My back hurts, I've worked my ass off these past couple of days and more to come. I'd love to have a, " that special one" to come home to, to relax

N I have loss.